7th January 2008 ( Wednesday)

Didnt see my darlin for 40 hrs 30min (minus off last nite da bao food for him which is bout 30mins i think).... Im missin him like crazy... Today we didnt reali sms cos his side don have much reception... Haix... Busy with work... chiong for the audit... How i hope the audit faster finish and must be a good one...

Got a shocking new in the afternoon, alice told me dat the chq which i lost had been cashed out yesterday... Is impossible cos it is not cash cheque and i had made crosses on the chq too.... Alice as usual super gan giong ran out to DBS Bank to check whether who cash out the chq... i was told not to mention anything to uncle toni if not she is going to get scolded as Uncle Toni had reminded her to void the chq... but she didnt thinking dat no one will cash out the chq since i had written my name on it... when she reached DBS Bank, she called me again complaining the queue very long and dat she is toopix didnt void, blar blar blar... So i asked her to check properly 1st even if the person cashed out by forging her signature, there are so many cctv around defintely can see whos that person... So she put down the phone. I was doing my makeup cos meeting my brother to PS to repair my hp and collect my braclet. Another phone call from her again, the officer checked and find out that the chq had went thru into another person account. So i asked alice to check who is the fellow... and told her dat i had filled up my name and account number behind. Maybe the money had gone thru my bank or wad... She asked me to go down to the bank to check... pass the officer my account number and the money was really in my bank... Alice finally relax abit after hearing dat... but i don haf any identification card with me, they cant reissue an atm card... so if i had to withdraw money got to bloody queue up... Due to time constrint, i choose not to do it today anyway alice also gif green light saying the money in my bank nxt time den calculate... hmmm.. since that person who stole my wallet so good still can bank in my cheque to me.... how i hope dat person will return me my ic and driving license... haix

Went to PS with brother... suddenly i remember i left my police report in dear's car... wtf... is impossible for me to walk all the way back and take lor... so we still go PS but i took my braclet only... Ate carl's jr with bro... i finish off the burger... left abit of bread haha... today keep feeling hungry... hmm... mensses coming soon making me hungry... Argg!!! hopefully i don grow fat after the burger... rush back to salon cos i haf to teach @ 4pm... Luckily only orientation nia... last bout 30mins... continue doing my documentation stuffs...

Msg between me and dear:

Dear: can see aunty and uncle dote on u alot
(i was telling him wad had been regarding the chq suddenly he reply this msg... ??? i replied him and asked wad does the chq issue got to do with aunty and uncle doting on me)

Dear: if u notice they treat u v.nice.. i also really scared u leave me cos wad me n rodin different?
if u can do it to him. i dun c y u cant do it to me.
(when i saw this msg, my mood straight away when down man... cos i don knw wad to reply him... if u r afriad so am i... i also afraid one day u will tell me i treat u too good and den leave me or im too sticky or wadever shit... In life no matter in r/s or career, there are alot of unforeseen circumstances... true enu... rodin and his family treat me very good and i admit i don cherish him... though he is trying his best to treat me good.... wad can i do??? i don wanna take advantage of the good things he did to me... the more he treat me good the more i need to reject him cos i don love him anymore... and dat he will find a better gal... i had try my best to put away negative thinking and y are u immerging urself in negative thoughts. haix...

Dear: i will leave if i cant take e insecurity but as 4 nw im ok. n same as u. i wana u be my wife
soon
(i asked him will u leave me if u feel insecure?)

Dear: maybe in 1 years time if we r ready cos i wana live e rest of my life with u!
(I asked him how soon? that was his replied... haha...

Dear: cos im love sick nw can! all becos of u nw i like this!
(i asked him how come 3 years time suddenly become 1 year liao cos we had an agreement if we managed to be together for 3 years den get married??? haha)

After all this sms, he called... chat awhile... den he had to go back to his work... I stay at salon till 8.30pm lor... Rodin was in salon uploading software into the new computer... This is the 1st time i saw him after bout 2 months or more i think... hmmm... i thought i will feel awkward... but seem ok lei... juz like normal friends... didnt talk much even talk also talk about work stuffs... went off to have dinner with wendy le...

yesh... im going jogging now with my brother... is 12.02am nw... this bloody shit still don wanna go jogging... later i jog half way faint cos too tired liao... haha... missin dear so much... didnt receive his msg... think no reception if not sleeping liao...