Is been awhile since i last blog.... Royce is sleepin now n im rotting at hm.... Look like we haf been together for almost 5months.... ONLY.... N we r getting married soon on 3rd Jan 2010... Recently, we haf been arguing over small issues fequently... Is kinda bad for e r/s but sometime i juz cant stop myself.... My mood swings r getting more n more frequent.... Easily agitated..... My minds always sway off to e negative side.... If this goes on, im reali sinkin into depression... Mayb is e hormonal changes in my body made me dat way.... or im simply crazy over getting married n haf baby.... Hmmm... i still cant imagine im getting maried soon..... at e age of 24 years old... Im afraid dat i don haf e ability to gif my child a comfortable home when me n royce kip having arguement... Im afraid we r not financially stable yet to begin a family.... Worry dat we cant go thru obstacle together someday in future.... Worry n worry n worry.... Every night i dreamt dat one day we will go thru divorce... everyday i wonder wad i will feel if i lost my baby.... will i be happy? n continue my life from there or e other way round?... Every nite i felt like crying when royce hug mi to slp... There goes my mood swing again... haix... bo tai bo chi also can cry.... I worry my baby haven cum out yet, I n royce r/s aldy deteriote.... Haix.... I also dun knw wad e hell m i thinking? But i still love my baby n royce... My baby is 11 weeks old already.... and is 3cm+.... a small baby living inside my womb.... eating up my food n makin me feel emo... haha... Cant wait to knw e gender of my baby... 3 more months to see e gender... Yeah!!!!
Mummy n Daddy love u..
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
21st August 2009
Is been 1month+ since i last blog... Well, im not an addicted blogger, since royce asked bout my blog den i blog lor.. nothing much this 1 month except i no longer working as full time and now surviving on commercial makeup and hoping to earn much more in property... So far, im doing well in freelancing makeup and tml im learning new things in property with Gui Fang aunty.... Is going to be a nagging day for me tml, cos i had joined Propnex on April til now only sell 1 hse... She confirm will say, u must focus, focus is the main key that lead to success... Well, i knw but i must haf time 1st wad.... Think my freelancing makeup side is quieting down might as well go learn something from her b4 i reali go door knocking (kinda scary to go hse to hse and ask whether they wanna sell hse, swear man).... Listing listing pls come to me ba... haha.. Hoping to can intro man.. but i haf decide to start off with private property in show flat 1st and see how it goes since private property is moving fast. Well... Hoping i will succeed from here and lead much happier life with every 3 months holidays.... Haha.. Dat impossible..... unless im earning 10k each month.. Wohooo..
R/s nothing much to say... Still happily being with each other... Something different from the past which is i haf been staying at his hse on weekend and recently hanging out with his sister.... Hmmmm.... A good start maybe... and my lovely dog also.... He will always be e bad guy who lecture and beat my dog.... and im an angel mummy who will let my dog bully me.... Haha.... wad a joke man..... I love both of them anyway and of cos my family.... After having oreo in my life make me wanna start a family..... but need to haf alot of money... cos once in a lifetime... Better to safe enu to haf a wonderful wedding and marriage....
Well, im going to vietnam soon. yeah..but without royce cos is ladies trip and i booked the ticket b4 im with him... well, i will be missing u dear for e 5days.... haix... sad but exicted.... haha.... nv been b4 and i think is worth going cos everything there is cheap.. Think i will be spending less than $500 including airticket and accomodation lor.... I will be storing money for shopping retreat in vietnam.... If there are lots of clothes to buy in vietnam den most likely im not planning to go bbk on jan 10 already... Hmmmm....
dats bout it..... DEAR I WILL LEARN TO BECOME ROMANTIC OK.... WHICH I THINK NEED ALOT OF TIME HAHA..... MUACKZ... MISSING U
R/s nothing much to say... Still happily being with each other... Something different from the past which is i haf been staying at his hse on weekend and recently hanging out with his sister.... Hmmmm.... A good start maybe... and my lovely dog also.... He will always be e bad guy who lecture and beat my dog.... and im an angel mummy who will let my dog bully me.... Haha.... wad a joke man..... I love both of them anyway and of cos my family.... After having oreo in my life make me wanna start a family..... but need to haf alot of money... cos once in a lifetime... Better to safe enu to haf a wonderful wedding and marriage....
Well, im going to vietnam soon. yeah..but without royce cos is ladies trip and i booked the ticket b4 im with him... well, i will be missing u dear for e 5days.... haix... sad but exicted.... haha.... nv been b4 and i think is worth going cos everything there is cheap.. Think i will be spending less than $500 including airticket and accomodation lor.... I will be storing money for shopping retreat in vietnam.... If there are lots of clothes to buy in vietnam den most likely im not planning to go bbk on jan 10 already... Hmmmm....
dats bout it..... DEAR I WILL LEARN TO BECOME ROMANTIC OK.... WHICH I THINK NEED ALOT OF TIME HAHA..... MUACKZ... MISSING U
Saturday, July 18, 2009
18th July 2009
We r together now since 5th July 2009.... Kana kidnap by him.... Lolx.... so far so good... Blogging now cos Gladys said im so lazy to blog... To prove that im not a lazy pig.. bo biAn haf to blog lor... Haix... alone at hm.... so bored... my darlin duty no one accompany me... but is ok... cos i haf lots of movie WAITING for me... Alright... Will stop here...
* Gladys haven to see my blog, im not lazy hor... c i got blog one ok... only when im with royce lar cos this blog is meant for him... Haha.... Waiting for our lovely picture to be uploaded in facebook ya.. Muackz!!! Missin U...
* Gladys haven to see my blog, im not lazy hor... c i got blog one ok... only when im with royce lar cos this blog is meant for him... Haha.... Waiting for our lovely picture to be uploaded in facebook ya.. Muackz!!! Missin U...
Saturday, January 31, 2009
31st January 2009 (Saturday)
Yesterday he finish work early... Went to buy some grocery to cook.... Juz simple meal... I add too many water, the rice look like japanese rice... Haha...
我不知道要这么写。情绪很乱，不知道自己可不可以挨过这一关。虽然我很爱你不想失去你但是我的心还是那么痛。。。 头脑一片空白。。。有很多疑问。。。我问我自己有可能吗？还是因为现在你很爱我所以不介意我以前犯下的错？可能1年，2年，3年后，你介意了？或者你会一之怀疑，担心我在外面有没有这么样？或者你有一天会放弃我？你说我们从头来过，你会把那些关于我不好的事给忘记？有可能说忘就忘吗？我怀疑因为我自己做不到。。。我忘不掉也清楚知道这件事的影响力有多大。。。昨天你所说的事对我打击很大。。。我一直在压抑自己不去想但是。。。我不知道要这么去面对。。。我们在一起是被祝福的吗还是只是个笑话？一开始到现在都被一些事情阻挡。。。那现在呢？我们能通过这个考验吗？
我不知道要这么写。情绪很乱，不知道自己可不可以挨过这一关。虽然我很爱你不想失去你但是我的心还是那么痛。。。 头脑一片空白。。。有很多疑问。。。我问我自己有可能吗？还是因为现在你很爱我所以不介意我以前犯下的错？可能1年，2年，3年后，你介意了？或者你会一之怀疑，担心我在外面有没有这么样？或者你有一天会放弃我？你说我们从头来过，你会把那些关于我不好的事给忘记？有可能说忘就忘吗？我怀疑因为我自己做不到。。。我忘不掉也清楚知道这件事的影响力有多大。。。昨天你所说的事对我打击很大。。。我一直在压抑自己不去想但是。。。我不知道要这么去面对。。。我们在一起是被祝福的吗还是只是个笑话？一开始到现在都被一些事情阻挡。。。那现在呢？我们能通过这个考验吗？
Friday, January 30, 2009
30th January 2009 (Friday)
Im blogging this @ 7.04am... Dear juz went to work... Had been awhile since the last blog as im busy with work stuff...
Alot of things happen lately.... Things started to change a little too... Starting from meeting Gladys on 20th January 09 for dinner... Had curfew from him @ 11pm but told him i will be back @ 12am juz in case we chat too much or waiting time for train... Had so many experience with previous ex, whenever i told them this timing and i cant reach by the timing, im going to get it from them so might as well gif them the latest timing and if im home early den the expected timing at least im home early... Told him he is giving me more and more restriction... @ e end, he allowed me to go home whichever time im comfortable. Reach hm at 11.30pm by the way and did enjoy the session with gladys... We had not been meeting out for ages already...
Had been shopping for clothes recently during weekend with dear... He started to lose patient easily esp when im doing my shopping... There is 1 Saturday,I and Marie went to Queenstown Shopping Centre to buy clothes with dear... We spent almost 2 hrs trying clothes... Even Marie notice his face already black... CY was not with us cos he is in Orchard studying. When I tried clothes, he dont stay in the shop or see how i look in that top or dress cos he feel dat is very cramped inside the shop and he had to kip moving himself away from the people... Whenever i ask him this tube top nice anot, the ans is always the same ok lor, if not he will remain silent... There is 1 time, he sort of pissed off cos i asked him this tube top nice anot in front of a salesgirl which he don knw how to answer me cos he don like the top but cant tell me not nice. Afterall the incident of going shopping with him, make me pressure... When trying clothes, i will think whether will he be waitin too long outside or will his face become black when i try finish clothes... end up i didnt reali buy clothes when im alone with him... On the 21st January 09, dear finish work late due to CNY event held in camp so i asked Wendy to accompany me buy clothes... I had to leave bugis by 8.15pm cos dear finish work at 9pm... But after finish doing my shopping i left Bugis @ 8.30pm... No need to say i confirm cant reach hm by 9pm and he is not very happy... Dear intend to cook for me, so he went to sheng shiong to buy groceries and I walked back hm myself... Enjoy his ABC soup and we watch movie...
On 23rd January 09, we are msning in the late afternoon... He told me he doesnt like me wearing tube top/dress cos ppl r looking at my boobs and he feel uncomfortable bout it.... @ dat moment when i saw dat msg in my msn, i almost go crazy cos i feel ridiculous @ dat point of time... he even asked me to pack my tube top/dress and throew it away... end up nv throw la cos waste money lor... In e fist of anger, i wrote it in facebook status saying dat i need to go for plastic surgery to flatening my boobs... Gladys and Wendy also commented on my status and i didnt knw every1 in facebook will saw wad i wrote.. cos i thought only my own friends will see it... The next ting i knw is dear super duper dulan... quickly deleted all those comment that i wrote cos his colleague also saw wad i wrote and ask him wad happen... And he started to say things like i do wadever i like and he is not going to bother anymore.... And so heng after he du lan, rodin came to salon for haircut and help out with some work stuff... He is juz beside me and i cant open my msn to see... dear thought i MIA and called me... i cant talked much so i juz replied him im busy now... He put down the phone and sms back, he mean wad he said in msn as in do wadever i like and don act busy when we are in e midst of arguement. hmmm... i reali had nothing to say cos IM REALI BUSY cos os the last day of work and i will be back only on 2nd Febuary 09.... of cos there is alot of work stuff to clear.
He don reali allow me to go clubbing with my gal friends giving reasons like is dangerous cos guys pick up gals normally in clubbing, scared later get into fights... den he started asking question like y must go to such places with alcohol, blah,blah,blah.... After explaining, he asked me wads the difference between him and rodin... wtf... sometime i feel like bang wall lor esp we r talking on topics dat he don like me to do.... After dat, he say go and do wadever u like... but the tone he used obviously he not comfortable when im out with friends... I reali don understand y men or i rather say y every of my previous r/s haf the same common problem which is WHENEVER IM OUTSIDE, THEY KEEEPPPP WORRYYINGGGGG!!!! When i tell them not to worry, they dont believe... Kaoz... when talking bout this issue reali make me jump up to the ceiling... Thought bf is important cos he mayb ur lifetime partner but doesnt mean i haf to forgo my friends... Is very unhealthy to sustain a friendship if we seldom meet out and we will start drifting apart. I had tried dat once when im with Thomas and lost 1 of my best friend nw and i don wan it to repeat history again... Till nw i still don knw e conclusion yet... Guess haf to wait till the nxt gal nite and will see wads his reaction...
Recently, i found myself prone to crying... kaoz... hate it when im like dat... but i cant help it... when he emo, he always gif me cold treatment... im as if barred in an secluded palace like dat... super hate dat feeling... he basically don touch u or hug u, no direct eye contact, even when u try to ask him question he will say im ok or i haf nothin to say or cant i juz keep quiet. His reply is always damn short & sweet... n i can tell u dis feeling is damn shit... nw i understand how my ex feel when i always kept silent during an arguement... and also remind me of how thomas used to treat me... he sometime juz make me feel dat he is going to leave me when he did dat to me... Dat day, he suddenly kept quiet den he wrote a msg in his hp and show it to me saying can u delete rodin and ivan's msg and pics in ur hp. Seriously, im shocked for a second... how does he knw i had their smses and pic in my hp.... Told him of cos i can delete... Rodin's smses had been deleted long time ago juz left pics only... so i juz deleted those dat have not been erased as instructed... den i start crying... Cry not becos i cant bear to delete those thing but im sad cos... 1stly, i feel dat my privacy had been breached... how can he see my things wifout asking... so wad if u r my bf or even husband... every1 got their own privacy even after marriage. 2ndly, he basically DONT TRUST ME!!! Arggg!!! wads so dificult in putting ur trust in me when my bloody heart is already belong to u...
Last nite, rodin came to my hse to pass me my stuffs... didnt expect he will be visiting my hse to bai nian with my mum... when rodin told me dat is better to bai nian with my mum to show respect i stun for a moment... don knw how to react... Told dear bout it and dear wanted to leave my hse for awhile till he left my hse... Knowiin dat rodin will bring my hse key so yesterday afternoon i went to Jp purposely to find a keychain for e hse key and gif it a surprise to dear... Rodin came up and chat bout 30min and left my hse... B4 calling dear, i quickly put the hse key into the key chain with the help of my bro... n called dear.... starting he behave normally... when i left room for a min and came back, he suddenly change again... Kaoz... i reali don knw wad to say... his mood changes damn fast lor... cold treatment AGAIN!!!! Sometime i feel like shouting in his face and asked him WAD DO U WAN ME TO DO SO DAT U WILL BE HAPPY!!! but i wont do dat lar... still asked him nicely wad happened... he replied... don disturb me, im playing my game... told him i wanna buy cigarette so he followed me to 7-11... Didnt hold my hand, no conversation made during the journey to buy cigarette... Obviously he is not happy with something... back at hm, i asked him again.... y r u unhappy about??? he said nothin... and i asked him back, if nothin, y didnt u hold my hand... he replied, why shld i? den i ans him cos im ur gf, he den said, i don feel like holding hand... Freaking damn broke my heart man... cos u upset over certain issue and tell me u don feel like holding my hands... wtf... he den said, can i juz gif him time to cool down later he will be fine... my bro den come in to my room and smoke, i don wanna stay in the room with him and went to my bro room... haix... needless to say, i freaking cry again... ARggggggg!!!! whenever i shed tears, i asked myself Y AM I SO IN LOVE WITH HIM... if im not in love, perhap i wont tend to easily upset whenever his mood swing strike... IF im not in love, i can simply ignore his toopix cold treatment and happily do my stuffs. IF im not in love, i dont even haf to bother every little thing dat he don like and try to change it... IF im not in love, i will not do e keychain for him... While i was bloggin nw, he smses me saying he is sorry for everything... I replied ok... He ans ok only? Told him wad do u wan me to reply? He said he feel dat everything seems like his fault... I asked him y? He said everything... ask me everything include wad... He den replied me the keychain he do for u one? the "he" referring to Rodin... wtf... cant he see the keychain name is ROYCE MIN.... 1st 2 alfhabet is RO must be Rodin lar... I replied him back in BIG CAP saying the keychain i do 1 cant u see the name is urs and the purpose of going to JP is to get this keychain for u not to buy my stuff.... He replied me y u so sweet???? wtf... don even wan to continue with this topic...i change topic by askin him no need to do his parade so free can sms... ARGGG!!! Hate ppl to "assume" this and that.... Don knw or don understand ask lar... God gif u mouth is to ask nt to assume things dat r not FACT... Sometime things dat u see might not be the truth, darlin... Last nite i don even had a good sleep cos of this toopix thing...plus don knw why my room got mosquito... till now also haven sleep yet... Arggg so damn tired...
Think i reali love him more than i expected... haix... hopefully the love i had for him wont make me suffer... After wad i had gone thru with Thomas, i told myself i will only find someone who love me more than i do, den i found rodin... after that i found dat this kinda of r/s dont work out for me. Even when im with Ivan, i tried to love him more but i still cast a barrier in between us cos im afraid of getting hurt till I found dear and fell deeply in love... haix... Im praying hard to god dat this r/s i had will be a blissful one and he will lead me to become a submissive gf/wife...
Alot of things happen lately.... Things started to change a little too... Starting from meeting Gladys on 20th January 09 for dinner... Had curfew from him @ 11pm but told him i will be back @ 12am juz in case we chat too much or waiting time for train... Had so many experience with previous ex, whenever i told them this timing and i cant reach by the timing, im going to get it from them so might as well gif them the latest timing and if im home early den the expected timing at least im home early... Told him he is giving me more and more restriction... @ e end, he allowed me to go home whichever time im comfortable. Reach hm at 11.30pm by the way and did enjoy the session with gladys... We had not been meeting out for ages already...
Had been shopping for clothes recently during weekend with dear... He started to lose patient easily esp when im doing my shopping... There is 1 Saturday,I and Marie went to Queenstown Shopping Centre to buy clothes with dear... We spent almost 2 hrs trying clothes... Even Marie notice his face already black... CY was not with us cos he is in Orchard studying. When I tried clothes, he dont stay in the shop or see how i look in that top or dress cos he feel dat is very cramped inside the shop and he had to kip moving himself away from the people... Whenever i ask him this tube top nice anot, the ans is always the same ok lor, if not he will remain silent... There is 1 time, he sort of pissed off cos i asked him this tube top nice anot in front of a salesgirl which he don knw how to answer me cos he don like the top but cant tell me not nice. Afterall the incident of going shopping with him, make me pressure... When trying clothes, i will think whether will he be waitin too long outside or will his face become black when i try finish clothes... end up i didnt reali buy clothes when im alone with him... On the 21st January 09, dear finish work late due to CNY event held in camp so i asked Wendy to accompany me buy clothes... I had to leave bugis by 8.15pm cos dear finish work at 9pm... But after finish doing my shopping i left Bugis @ 8.30pm... No need to say i confirm cant reach hm by 9pm and he is not very happy... Dear intend to cook for me, so he went to sheng shiong to buy groceries and I walked back hm myself... Enjoy his ABC soup and we watch movie...
On 23rd January 09, we are msning in the late afternoon... He told me he doesnt like me wearing tube top/dress cos ppl r looking at my boobs and he feel uncomfortable bout it.... @ dat moment when i saw dat msg in my msn, i almost go crazy cos i feel ridiculous @ dat point of time... he even asked me to pack my tube top/dress and throew it away... end up nv throw la cos waste money lor... In e fist of anger, i wrote it in facebook status saying dat i need to go for plastic surgery to flatening my boobs... Gladys and Wendy also commented on my status and i didnt knw every1 in facebook will saw wad i wrote.. cos i thought only my own friends will see it... The next ting i knw is dear super duper dulan... quickly deleted all those comment that i wrote cos his colleague also saw wad i wrote and ask him wad happen... And he started to say things like i do wadever i like and he is not going to bother anymore.... And so heng after he du lan, rodin came to salon for haircut and help out with some work stuff... He is juz beside me and i cant open my msn to see... dear thought i MIA and called me... i cant talked much so i juz replied him im busy now... He put down the phone and sms back, he mean wad he said in msn as in do wadever i like and don act busy when we are in e midst of arguement. hmmm... i reali had nothing to say cos IM REALI BUSY cos os the last day of work and i will be back only on 2nd Febuary 09.... of cos there is alot of work stuff to clear.
He don reali allow me to go clubbing with my gal friends giving reasons like is dangerous cos guys pick up gals normally in clubbing, scared later get into fights... den he started asking question like y must go to such places with alcohol, blah,blah,blah.... After explaining, he asked me wads the difference between him and rodin... wtf... sometime i feel like bang wall lor esp we r talking on topics dat he don like me to do.... After dat, he say go and do wadever u like... but the tone he used obviously he not comfortable when im out with friends... I reali don understand y men or i rather say y every of my previous r/s haf the same common problem which is WHENEVER IM OUTSIDE, THEY KEEEPPPP WORRYYINGGGGG!!!! When i tell them not to worry, they dont believe... Kaoz... when talking bout this issue reali make me jump up to the ceiling... Thought bf is important cos he mayb ur lifetime partner but doesnt mean i haf to forgo my friends... Is very unhealthy to sustain a friendship if we seldom meet out and we will start drifting apart. I had tried dat once when im with Thomas and lost 1 of my best friend nw and i don wan it to repeat history again... Till nw i still don knw e conclusion yet... Guess haf to wait till the nxt gal nite and will see wads his reaction...
Recently, i found myself prone to crying... kaoz... hate it when im like dat... but i cant help it... when he emo, he always gif me cold treatment... im as if barred in an secluded palace like dat... super hate dat feeling... he basically don touch u or hug u, no direct eye contact, even when u try to ask him question he will say im ok or i haf nothin to say or cant i juz keep quiet. His reply is always damn short & sweet... n i can tell u dis feeling is damn shit... nw i understand how my ex feel when i always kept silent during an arguement... and also remind me of how thomas used to treat me... he sometime juz make me feel dat he is going to leave me when he did dat to me... Dat day, he suddenly kept quiet den he wrote a msg in his hp and show it to me saying can u delete rodin and ivan's msg and pics in ur hp. Seriously, im shocked for a second... how does he knw i had their smses and pic in my hp.... Told him of cos i can delete... Rodin's smses had been deleted long time ago juz left pics only... so i juz deleted those dat have not been erased as instructed... den i start crying... Cry not becos i cant bear to delete those thing but im sad cos... 1stly, i feel dat my privacy had been breached... how can he see my things wifout asking... so wad if u r my bf or even husband... every1 got their own privacy even after marriage. 2ndly, he basically DONT TRUST ME!!! Arggg!!! wads so dificult in putting ur trust in me when my bloody heart is already belong to u...
Last nite, rodin came to my hse to pass me my stuffs... didnt expect he will be visiting my hse to bai nian with my mum... when rodin told me dat is better to bai nian with my mum to show respect i stun for a moment... don knw how to react... Told dear bout it and dear wanted to leave my hse for awhile till he left my hse... Knowiin dat rodin will bring my hse key so yesterday afternoon i went to Jp purposely to find a keychain for e hse key and gif it a surprise to dear... Rodin came up and chat bout 30min and left my hse... B4 calling dear, i quickly put the hse key into the key chain with the help of my bro... n called dear.... starting he behave normally... when i left room for a min and came back, he suddenly change again... Kaoz... i reali don knw wad to say... his mood changes damn fast lor... cold treatment AGAIN!!!! Sometime i feel like shouting in his face and asked him WAD DO U WAN ME TO DO SO DAT U WILL BE HAPPY!!! but i wont do dat lar... still asked him nicely wad happened... he replied... don disturb me, im playing my game... told him i wanna buy cigarette so he followed me to 7-11... Didnt hold my hand, no conversation made during the journey to buy cigarette... Obviously he is not happy with something... back at hm, i asked him again.... y r u unhappy about??? he said nothin... and i asked him back, if nothin, y didnt u hold my hand... he replied, why shld i? den i ans him cos im ur gf, he den said, i don feel like holding hand... Freaking damn broke my heart man... cos u upset over certain issue and tell me u don feel like holding my hands... wtf... he den said, can i juz gif him time to cool down later he will be fine... my bro den come in to my room and smoke, i don wanna stay in the room with him and went to my bro room... haix... needless to say, i freaking cry again... ARggggggg!!!! whenever i shed tears, i asked myself Y AM I SO IN LOVE WITH HIM... if im not in love, perhap i wont tend to easily upset whenever his mood swing strike... IF im not in love, i can simply ignore his toopix cold treatment and happily do my stuffs. IF im not in love, i dont even haf to bother every little thing dat he don like and try to change it... IF im not in love, i will not do e keychain for him... While i was bloggin nw, he smses me saying he is sorry for everything... I replied ok... He ans ok only? Told him wad do u wan me to reply? He said he feel dat everything seems like his fault... I asked him y? He said everything... ask me everything include wad... He den replied me the keychain he do for u one? the "he" referring to Rodin... wtf... cant he see the keychain name is ROYCE MIN.... 1st 2 alfhabet is RO must be Rodin lar... I replied him back in BIG CAP saying the keychain i do 1 cant u see the name is urs and the purpose of going to JP is to get this keychain for u not to buy my stuff.... He replied me y u so sweet???? wtf... don even wan to continue with this topic...i change topic by askin him no need to do his parade so free can sms... ARGGG!!! Hate ppl to "assume" this and that.... Don knw or don understand ask lar... God gif u mouth is to ask nt to assume things dat r not FACT... Sometime things dat u see might not be the truth, darlin... Last nite i don even had a good sleep cos of this toopix thing...plus don knw why my room got mosquito... till now also haven sleep yet... Arggg so damn tired...
Think i reali love him more than i expected... haix... hopefully the love i had for him wont make me suffer... After wad i had gone thru with Thomas, i told myself i will only find someone who love me more than i do, den i found rodin... after that i found dat this kinda of r/s dont work out for me. Even when im with Ivan, i tried to love him more but i still cast a barrier in between us cos im afraid of getting hurt till I found dear and fell deeply in love... haix... Im praying hard to god dat this r/s i had will be a blissful one and he will lead me to become a submissive gf/wife...
Thursday, January 15, 2009
13th January 2009 (Tuesday)
Morning call for me... as usual... dear had to call me a few times + smses me to wake me up.... Im such a pig. Kinda busy with work and students... Busying preparing powerpoint slide for tml presentation and students came in for class becos examination on thursday... Wad a busy day... Dear was smsing me asking me to cook... but my speciality is "maggi mee". Last nite he ate maggi mee already not healthy to eat tonight again. So i intend to cook spagetti... Luckily, they had those precook spagetti sauce which can be easily find in supermarket.... Haha... This is my 1st time cooking spagetti... Hoping everything goes well... Ask my bro not to buy dinner so dat he can taste it 1st... Haha... im so bad.. ask my brother to test my food.... Anyway due to work, i knocked off at 8.30pm... Rush to bugis cold storage to buy my stuffs... and rush back home... dear pick me up at lakeside mrt station since he juz left work. Dear was damn dusty... His hair become grey colour, his clothes full of sand and boots full of muds... Super disgusting... Anyway reach home straight away prepare the food cos everyone is straving already...
Actually not much thing lar... fried hotdogs and crabmeat and mushroom in the sauce + cooking the spagetti. but i was like preparing until siao... haha... dear wanted to help but i feel funny when he is around me esp when im cooking... haha... cos i easily get nervous when he is around me... asked him to watch his show to kill time so he bring Ong Bak 2 disc to the living room and watch with my brother. My brother also help me with cooking the pork meat... haha.... luckily we didnt lau sai cos the pork had been in the freezer since 25th dec till now...
Sat down and eat in the living room while watching Ong Bak 2... Brother auto help me wash some of the dishes... dear also help up and i had to wash the stove cos the stove is full of oil stain... Later mummy is going to jump up the ceiling if she was the oil stain on her stove... Around 12am dear fall asleep le.... He damn tired... ke lian darliN... I watch heroes while he is asleep till 3am again... Wow... my skin is going to dehydrate man... The golden time to rest our skin is from 11am to 2am....
Actually not much thing lar... fried hotdogs and crabmeat and mushroom in the sauce + cooking the spagetti. but i was like preparing until siao... haha... dear wanted to help but i feel funny when he is around me esp when im cooking... haha... cos i easily get nervous when he is around me... asked him to watch his show to kill time so he bring Ong Bak 2 disc to the living room and watch with my brother. My brother also help me with cooking the pork meat... haha.... luckily we didnt lau sai cos the pork had been in the freezer since 25th dec till now...
Sat down and eat in the living room while watching Ong Bak 2... Brother auto help me wash some of the dishes... dear also help up and i had to wash the stove cos the stove is full of oil stain... Later mummy is going to jump up the ceiling if she was the oil stain on her stove... Around 12am dear fall asleep le.... He damn tired... ke lian darliN... I watch heroes while he is asleep till 3am again... Wow... my skin is going to dehydrate man... The golden time to rest our skin is from 11am to 2am....
12th January 2008 (Monday)
Didnt go work today cos i wake up at 1pm... Haha.... juz feel super tired... Arggg!!!! Was smsing with dear.... Hmmm... again he is asking me to tell alice im quitting... hmmm.... he is asking around see whether got job anot... then.... asking me to work as kinegarden teacher... but need o lvl... too bad i don haf credit for english... den he told me dat he rather me go study abit 1st... after having a long discussion, end up we stick with working in current job and take up part time diploma.
I did alot of hse chore today... Washing dear's clothes, mopping the floor and washing toilet. After doing all those house chores, im damn tired. It was around 5 to 6pm liao. I cook maggi mee for my lunch too lazy to go out and eat.... Haha...
Today dear will be working late... Haix... watch Heroes all the way after bathing.... till bout 10pm... I heard someone coming back home.... I didnt care much cos should be my dad. Den someone knocked on my room door, haha.... Dear is back... Last nite i left my hse key in his car... Hahaha... Miss him so much but i cant hug him cos he is very dirty....
Cook maggi mee for him.... we watch show since we bought so many dvds. 1st we watch" wad happen in Vegas"... halfway thru the show, the disc spolied... den we watch the 2nd show "27 dresses", cant see too... 3rd show "the leap years", finally no problem. Dear watch half way fell asleep already so i continue to watch. The show was so touching toward the end... slept at 2 or 3am.., So tiring....
I did alot of hse chore today... Washing dear's clothes, mopping the floor and washing toilet. After doing all those house chores, im damn tired. It was around 5 to 6pm liao. I cook maggi mee for my lunch too lazy to go out and eat.... Haha...
Today dear will be working late... Haix... watch Heroes all the way after bathing.... till bout 10pm... I heard someone coming back home.... I didnt care much cos should be my dad. Den someone knocked on my room door, haha.... Dear is back... Last nite i left my hse key in his car... Hahaha... Miss him so much but i cant hug him cos he is very dirty....
Cook maggi mee for him.... we watch show since we bought so many dvds. 1st we watch" wad happen in Vegas"... halfway thru the show, the disc spolied... den we watch the 2nd show "27 dresses", cant see too... 3rd show "the leap years", finally no problem. Dear watch half way fell asleep already so i continue to watch. The show was so touching toward the end... slept at 2 or 3am.., So tiring....
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