8th December 2009

Is been awhile since i last blog.... Royce is sleepin now n im rotting at hm.... Look like we haf been together for almost 5months.... ONLY.... N we r getting married soon on 3rd Jan 2010... Recently, we haf been arguing over small issues fequently... Is kinda bad for e r/s but sometime i juz cant stop myself.... My mood swings r getting more n more frequent.... Easily agitated..... My minds always sway off to e negative side.... If this goes on, im reali sinkin into depression... Mayb is e hormonal changes in my body made me dat way.... or im simply crazy over getting married n haf baby.... Hmmm... i still cant imagine im getting maried soon..... at e age of 24 years old... Im afraid dat i don haf e ability to gif my child a comfortable home when me n royce kip having arguement... Im afraid we r not financially stable yet to begin a family.... Worry dat we cant go thru obstacle together someday in future.... Worry n worry n worry.... Every night i dreamt dat one day we will go thru divorce... everyday i wonder wad i will feel if i lost my baby.... will i be happy? n continue my life from there or e other way round?... Every nite i felt like crying when royce hug mi to slp... There goes my mood swing again... haix... bo tai bo chi also can cry.... I worry my baby haven cum out yet, I n royce r/s aldy deteriote.... Haix.... I also dun knw wad e hell m i thinking? But i still love my baby n royce... My baby is 11 weeks old already.... and is 3cm+.... a small baby living inside my womb.... eating up my food n makin me feel emo... haha... Cant wait to knw e gender of my baby... 3 more months to see e gender... Yeah!!!!

Mummy n Daddy love u..